Lord, how I miss having Lady B next door. The new people don’t do nothing but come and go, never looking right or left. Act like throwing up a hand might kill them. All those big, dumb-looking boys do is work on they dog cages. Never crack each other up, just mumble back and forth like they got nails in they mouths. And the woman, she let all the weeds choke out Lady B’s pretty flowers. Looks a mess over there. You’d never know anyone ever cared for that house, oiled the floors, gave the curtains a spring wash.
When she was beside me, the world was all right. Everyday that door of hers be swinging open, that hinge her man couldn’t fix whining like a cat in heat. She had a light way of walking, but I always heard her feet on the hen gravel. She pop that head around the corner of the porch and smile like sunshine on the lake. Rooney said she wasn’t pretty at all, but that fool only like thick girls with blond hair all down they back. I thought Lady B. was just about the prettiest thing I ever set eyes on.
“I got a piece of pie, if you want it,” she say to me sometimes. Or else, “I made a pot of chili.” I already knew if she was making chili because it made the whole holler smell good and warm like flannel. Lady B never had no little ones of her own, but she was a mamma through and through. She fed anyone who wanted a bite. I was just the luckiest one, my porch right next to hers.
Her kitchen was small and yellow. The table was just big enough for two. When that man of hers rumbled away in the morning in his truck, long before the sun was up, she had that place to herself until nigh dark. We’d start the morning off with some little cake or something and coffee, telling the same stories over and over, and agreeing on who was good and who was rotten of the folks we knew. We’d part for a while in the middle of the day, clean up our places a little bit, maybe do a little fuss with the dirty clothes and start a pot of soup. But always I think I hear her on the porch and wish I could get my chores done sooner.
Then one day that man come home and tell her he got a new job, other side of the valley, and they ought to move on down the mountain, closer to town. She was sad to say good-bye to that little house and the holler, but I was more sad than Lady B. It didn’t hurt much, knowing I was more torn up to see her go than she was to be leaving. It weren’t her fault she could cotton to anything and anyone, while I be the kind who keeps close to myself. She give out her last cup of flour to a tramp. I be thinking, ‘What he gonna do with it? Don’t look like he got anything else to make bread with.’
Lady B could get herself caught by the Bible thumpers, standing behind the screen door, smiling all nice while they talk Jesus at her with they hats in they hands. I peep out from behind my sorry front room curtain, trying not to breath unless they gonna hear me.
When she went down off the mountain, she took her light with her. Wherever she landed, she’s passing out little bits of herself, sweet slices of pie and all kind of kindness. I wish she changed me. I wish sometimes I took over a bowl of chili to that worn old dog living in Lady B’s house. But that woman got small eyes, a jaw you could split logs with. She ain’t nothing but meanness, I can tell, and I’d rather my rooms be quiet all the day than trade an angel for a sore old sow. Anyway, maybe it’s time we got out of the holler anyway.
I think sometimes we could make it down in town, maybe find a couple little rooms on the street where Lady B lives. She’d have all kinds of friends now, but she’d make room for me at her table, I know. And this house would fall apart like her own had done, but that wouldn’t matter none. It’s people that mean anything. Houses are just wood and clay and tin and they ain’t no better than them what keeps them.